Although, I never thought we’d be here – not friends nor enemies. There’s no bitterness from my side. I’ve matured and accepted things in the healthiest way possible. Now that I think of it – my journey could be described like this:
I couldn’t forget you, and I felt like I’m obsessed with you.
I don’t care what people say, but forgetting someone close to you is like losing a part of you. You cannot just pretend you never had any memories with that person. It doesn’t work like that. I can ignore you, avoid you, keep you out of my circle – but I cannot forget the memories we made.
The ‘Goodbye’ moment wasn’t pre-planned, but it happened anyway.
It was not easy. It happened so suddenly, that it took me several minutes to realize all is lost. I wasn’t ready to lose you but still did. It was so unreal to just be there, and feel an emptiness that wasn’t there a minute ago. It literally only took a minute to change everything.
Isn’t it crazy that we were close to being something, and ended up being nothing? It’s like we almost came full circle. And no, this article isn’t about me being weak or how much I miss you – it’s about how much peace I needed and now finally have. You were a good person, still are I’m sure – but I don’t know, we clicked and yet we didn’t click right. I don’t hate you nor do I dislike you.
You weren’t ‘my’ person, but you were something complicated to explain.
You weren’t exactly ‘my’ person; No, you were something more complicated than that. You were the person, whom I met and felt this instant connection. We had nothing in common. We still have nothing in common, except for that awkwardness we share. That’s the loudest sound between us.
Do I miss you? Yes. Do I want to bring you back? No.
I always had this feeling that life got complicated the moment we met. Not like we wanted it to be like that but still we had such an amazing connection. We understood better without saying much. It was something like – we completed each other as flawlessly as a hot knife cuts through cold butter – but I guess things needed to change.
**TRIGGER WARNINGS – Suicide, Depression, Anxiety Attacks, and stress.
Hi! I know this is an article but I want readers to feel up-front and personal whilst reading. I will be writing ‘You’ so that it seems like I am speaking to you – and I hope this article can make you smile at some point. This article is not to educate you on Mental Health, because you already know about it. This article is more about helping you cope with situations.